A lot has happened in my life the past few weeks. One of my good friends, Brennan Hall passed away. I miss her very much and think of and talk to her daily. I try to keep her mom company every so often. She told me she was going to miss having girls around the house. She must have felt so empty, Sunday the 9th. It was her first mother’s day without B. I sent her some flowers, not that it will help. I just can’t believe she’s gone.. It amazes me how insensitive some people are about it. These two guys just keep disrespecting her and her memory. I can’t believe how people act these days. I kind of wish I lived in a less accepting time.. Is that wrong of me? I just can’t understand why and how people act the way they do. No respect for the dead, parents, elders in general, or even people in general. It’s not right.
My summer is almost over (for a month anyway). I go back to school Sunday, and I am excited to have a conflict-free summer semester. My classes are only in for a month and towards the end of June, I’ll be done! I am so ready. My parents are taking me and Andrew to Disney World and the Harry Potter theme park. They always spoil me, but I’m so excited! I’ve been whining about wanting to go for a long time and now I finally get to. Since I’m moving back home soon, I get to redecorate my room. It will be the same colors are my dorm was but I just have to tear down a lot of wallpaper and try to get organized. I’m going to paint the bottom half gray and the top white. It’s simple and won’t be too hard to cover when the time comes. Teal of course will be the accent color.
I think I’m beginning to realize something about myself. I think sometimes, that I’m too nice. I know, everyone in the world thinks they are too nice probably. It’s just a chain of events that have made this all come to light. Three situations in particular; First, My best friend from high school moves away. Not to another house, or even city in the state, but to a place about 13 hours away. I guess there’s nothing particular about that except SHE DIDN’T TELL ME. Long story short, I would hear all about the drama, but she would never call just to chat, or see how I was. She called me when she needed something from me. Recently, we began speaking again and low and behold she needs me to pick her up from the airport? and I agree? WHY? I have no clue. Second, a friend says she needs me, but when I ask if something is wrong or what is happening, she either gives me the whole story or acts as if I’ve never been there for her. I’ve been away from Dothan for two years, I text/call, hang out with her on the weekends some, what else can I do? She texts me or asks me to hang out because she recently lost a boyfriend and best friend. Before, she didn’t show much interest in hanging out with me. She had them. Third, I was supposed to start work with one of my friends. I found another job that would pay me more. She got so mad and wouldn’t speak to me for months. The second her boyfriend breaks up with her, she starts talking and actually wants me to come be with her so she’s not alone. She only talks when she needs something? and I went. I always do. I have this NEED to be there for people, and in turn I get used. I love all these girls to death, and it might not be the case, this is just how it feels to me.
All these recent happenings have made me see just how incredibly lucky I am to have Andrew. Our two year anniversary is in a week and I can’t believe it! It has gone by so fast. He is my light in the dark. He keeps me sane and happy when nothing else will. He loves me for who I am, not what I will do for him. He has been here for me in hard times, even when I wasn’t there for his. He makes me laugh constantly but knows when to comfort me. He isn’t perfect, and neither am I but I feel like together, we make a perfect couple. I love him so much.
